SHHHHHHHH ittttttttt

First things first. I sucked at silent day!! I made it until about 6pm and at that point I was starting to get depressed. My roomate Jane, who is hysterical, and was also participating in silent day walked into our room and I tell her that I was done and I didn't enjoy it at all. Her reply was, "I didn't like it either, it made everyone else that much more annoying." So of course we have been talking non stop since. I will say that I learned one thing and that is that I love to connect with people. Not that I didn't already know that but for me the experience isn't as complete without getting other peoples input. Now when I told Ryan I was participating in silent day he replied, "That sounds like my dream day." So when he arrives I will let him try the silent thing and we will see if maybe he has a different reaction. So to sum it up, it isn't for everyone.

I feel like I am learning so much here. I am in lectures for 3-4 hours a day and I can not possably pass it all on. I have decided to continue to share my experience with everyone but I am going to have a list of books that I recommend at the end of my stay if anyone is serious in jumping on the raw band wagon. My favorite point today was if a steak is so full of protein how do you think the cow became protein, by eating a steak? Hello, they eat raw leafy greens or they should anyway. Who knows what they are eating these days.

I also had a consultation with a stress pshycologist here. It is part of the program. We meet with him for a half hour and then we meet again for an hour session. He told me that at the beginning of the next session I had to tell him what my three biggest wishes are for myself. This immediatley makes me cry. It has been a long time since I felt like I could even think about my future. Being here makes me really believe I have a future. I have always talked about my cancer in a positive way and I have tried not to let it get me down but I was never quite sure how I was going to be able to achieve my goal of being cancer free. Now I see that it is very possible. So many people before me have come here with cancers just as bad as mine and have walked out changed and living healthy lifestyles. I am not going to say it is going to be easy. I was actually craving some french fries tonight. Thank god I don't have a car here or I would probably be at Wendy's right now. YIKES!!

So, I received a package today and I felt like it was Christmas morning. I feel a bit like a kid away at summer camp. Everyone around me was so jealous that I had received a box. So a big thank-you to Jackie. You made my day! I am not trying to guilt the rest of you into sending me packages. Especially after my plea for mail. Seriously I love the blog postings just as much. O.K. almost as much. hee hee!! Hope to TALK to all of you soon!

Kristine

Hippocrates
Attn: Kristine Becker
1443 Palmdale Court
West Palm Beach, Fl. 33411

P.S. The spell check is not working. Sorry. : (