Me....Stable???

The word stable has always made me uncomfortable. All of you that know me personally will understand what I mean. I always kind of felt that stable would include a nice 2 car garage in the suburbs with 2.2 kids and the perfect ken doll husband. Now let's not get the wrong idea, there is nothing wrong with wanting or having any of that in your life. It just wasn't my thing. Usually when I started to feel too comfortable somewhere I would pick up and move just to keep it interesting. It was a lifestyle I enjoyed. The only rules I ever had were to not buy anything that wouldn't fit in my car and I never wanted to hear myself say, "I wish I could do that."

Today was one of the first times in my life that I welcomed someone calling me stable. You see I have been holding out on all of you with the fact that I had my follow-up scans on last Thursday. Dr Staddon said that things looked pretty much the same as my last scans. Exactly what every cancer patient hopes to hear. I knew in my head and my heart that everything was going to be fine. Now my goal is to just keep it that way.

Of course, my family and a few close friends knew about my appointment today. Everyone kept asking me if I was worried or stressed. I knew it would be normal to feel that way but I just kept telling myself that worrying about it does not change the results. Besides I have to believe in my mind that cancer is behind me and the rest of my stable or unstable life is ahead. I do know that whatever lies ahead I will embrace it with open arms. I have learned so much this past year and feel truly grateful for everyday to come. I really can not wait to see what tomorrow brings. It is funny that I no longer feel the need to move to another city to keep things interesting. Life has a funny way of doing that for me.